For When You Miss Someone...
Molly Nichols
A large part of life I’m coming to learn is that when you miss someone that feeling is one of the most heartbreaking ones of all. When you love someone, there’s a large part of you that refuses to acknowledge the fact that they have the power to leave... so if or when they finally do, we’re left feeling defeated. And a lot of people will tell you that you can transform this feeling of defeat into power, what they fail to mention is that this “power” often starts off with loneliness, regret, and fear.
Whether this loss is taking place in a friendship or a relationship of any kind, the feeling is usually akin. I can’t lie and say that I haven’t been feeling the slightest bit lost lately... because I have. And while I don’t care to boil down the specifics for you... point blank...it sucks. I don’t want to whine or complain because that isn’t the type of blog post you probably want to be reading. So instead I am choosing to explain to you all of the feelings I have experienced since my recent breakup in the hopes maybe you can take something from them.
Sad- Obvious, right? Well maybe not, sometimes people choose to put on a brave face, and that’s fine until suddenly it’s three a.m and you’ve become accustomed to that lonely hour being the time in your day you’ve allowed to feel sorry for yourself. People get lonely, and as much as you can say you don’t miss someone or you’ve stopped loving them...well I don’t know if I can believe you on that. If you’ve ever truly loved someone, the burning pain felt from them disappearing from your life is searing and damaging.
Loneliness- Self explanatory? I don’t know, feeling lonely is only natural especially when someone who’s been a constant has suddenly gone radio silent. Maybe it’s simply better that way.
Confident and happy- Yay, the part all of you probably wanted to hear :) and yes, since my breakup there have been times where I am just so inexplicably happy... mostly around the people who care for me and new people I’ve gotten the opportunity to meet. I’ve had chances to change up my style..my hair color (which less than pleased my mother, but oh well :)) Most importantly I’ve had the chance to change up the way that I feel about myself.
The chance to introduce and say “Hi, I’m Molly” compared to “Hi, I’m so and so’s girlfriend.” And that’s when that feeling of power finally starts to kick in a little.
To my ex boyfriend and to all of you out there who miss someone who’s left your life in a good or bad way. Be thankful. Life is so short and when people are able to come in and provide you with an experience you can’t help but grow from... you’ve won. Congrats, and I’m so proud of you. Keep hanging in there :)
- Molly
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